~faith or destiny~

…Arini emg akn jd sjarah lam hdup ak..bt kali ptame nye ak tlibat lam accident..ALLAH masih cyg kn ak..ak xcdera pape p0wn,,p kete ak emg ‘rabox’..skrunx nie ak msih lam fobia & terkejut ngn kjadian ptg td..ak ondway blik umah pas abis g tmpah baju f0r our group in TLC class..mse tuu da nk dkt smpai kt umah..dgn tbe2 nye BANG!!!ak tataw camne ak ley langgar blkg kete mkcik tuu..or mybe akak..sdgkn mse tuu kete ak sgt2 laa sl0w,,kt trfic lite lak tuu…ak emg da brek & bhntii…ak sndiri pown xprasan yg ak tlggar kete dye…sbb x bunyi kuat p0wn..laz2 ak tgk da kemek..yg tragis lg,,bile ak lnggar kete akak tuu..kete dye plak lnggar kete dpn,,n lnggar lg yg dpn..s0 ’4’ kete sume yg tlibat..ak panik glew mse tuu & kluar dr kete..p akak tuu s0wh prking kt tpi jln..s0 ktorg drive laa ketepi..then bile ak tgk jew kt depan kete ak tuu..MASYAALLAH!!sgt2 terux…lmpuu pecah n kemek terus…tuu kete ak..3 kete lg cmne plax??erm kete akak tuu agk teruk laa kt dpn,,tp ad laa kemek cket2..& yg kete lain luke2 kecik jew laa..xterux sgt p0wn..tp xterux pown mst mhl lau nk baiki blik kn…

…ak tensi0n glew mse tuu n tataw nk ckp ape..tp akak n abg2 tuan punye kete tuu igt ak bwk laju..pdhl x p0wn..ak brani sumpah yg ak x lajuu mse tuu… tp dorunx xmrh ak p0wn..dorunx p0wn phm yg ak nie pmilik lesen P…lepas tuu ak call mama & abg ak…then dorunx p0wn datang ngn ayh teh ak…sblom dorunx smpai tuu akak tuu ad nsihat ak len kali hati2..dye xmrh juz nsht cmtuu jew..tp ak tataw pew yg ak ase mse tuu..yg pasti emg ak nangis selox…xtahan sgt,,sampai laa mama smpai..dorunx p0wn disscuss laa kt tpi jln tuu..ak prasan emg rmai sgt org yg lalu kt tpi jln tuu asyik pndang kt kete ak jew..bub kete ak laa pling terux kali…dorunx letak kn sume kslhn tuu kt ak,,n ak p0wn xnafi kn yg ak emg salah..mybe ak k0yaa mse tuu n xprasan kete dpn brek mngejut..s0o dorunk sume nk mntak gnti rugi dr pihak ak..s0 bncg2 sume stuju nk byr terus..xnk pkay insurans coz prcdure yee lmbt..then,,ak,,mama,,abg g bank kluar kn RM2000..utk jelaskn byrn kt pmilik2 kete tuu..satu kete lam RM600..ak juz duduk lam kete mama..nangis dr td xhnti2..pkcik2 tuu ad gak s0wh bhnti nangs bub nde da jd..sume da blaku..s0o,,nk xnk emg kne byr laa gak..skunk nie xtaw laa ak ase pew..yg pasti ak ase terharuu glew kt mama,,abah,,ayh teh n abg..dorunk xmrh ak p0wn,,sume mcm phm jew..s0 dorunx bt syp ew..abah xikut pown mse tuu,,juz duk kt umah..n abh ad call pas tuu p ak xley nk cite bub ngah srabut,,pastuu abh call mama..ak taw aboh risau kn ak..mama sndiri ckp yg abh risau…ble ak dgr jew ak trus nangis lg..xhnti2..;(

….pastuu sume blik umah pas dpt duit msing2..mse blik,,ayh teh yg drive kete yg accident tuu…then sampai umah lam 6 lbey..s0 ak masuk umah terus solat asr..then sambong nangis lg lam blik..tbe2 ak trtid0o smpai laa mghrib..then terjage blik ble mama kejut sowh solat…lepas tuu ak bce ysin..mse tuu p0wn ak xley bhnti nangis lg..lepas jew solat ak baring ats katil..pastuu mama suruh kluar blik..dye ajk mkn..& sowh mandi..pastuu dye ckp,,’dah2 laa nangis tuu..nde lepas dah wak nape nk igt2 lg’..;(((then tbe2 amir call..(amir=kwn baik ak,,tp kitorg da lme st0p mcj bub ad sbb2 trtentuu)..mase lam kete td ak ad mcj amir..ak ckp yg ak accident tp dye n0 resp0n..s0 ak igt kn dye emg tol2 da mls lyn n amik taw sal ak..tp upe2 nye x..dye still cncern kn ak…kat 20 kali dye call tp ak xangkt..ak emg xredy lg nk ckp ngn dye..lau ak angkt,,emg cnpem makin selox ak nangis..s0o ak mcj dye,,ak ckp yg ak ok jew,,s0o dye xprluu rsaw..tp dye still call lg..smapi laa 10 mnit pastuu dyee stop..n pastuu ak mcj lg dye..ak mtak maap bub x angkat kol dye..tp x dlvered..mybe btry dye empty or dye off f0n..

…lame kelamaan ak da ley st0p crying..n ble ak tgk muke ak kt cermin..h0hoo..bengkak glew..mate sepet!..pastuu ak kluar blik n g tgk tv..ak da mls nk fkir sal nie lg n nk tngkn fkiran jew skunx nie..Yg ak pling terasa bile mama sgt amik berat sal ak..bile dye tny yg ak da mkn kew blom…dr tuu ak nmpak sgt yg mama emg  cyg glew2 kt ak..INSYALLAH ak akn balas blik budi baik mama,,aboh,,ayh teh n abg..td ak trfikr nk byr blik duit mama..lau ak da ad duit n mampu byr nnti..lau bley ak emg xnk susah kn sume org..tp ak anggap nie sume dugaan..n niee laa yg dinamakn TAKDIR ALLAH..mngkin sume nie ad hkmah..n kjadian nie sgt2 mngajar ak erti ksih cyg seorg ibu,,bapa n abg trhadap ank & adik nye..ak sgt2 hargai pngorbanan sume org,,,kt cnie ak nk ckp yg ak SAYANG sgt kat MAMA…ABAH…ERI & AYAH TEH.. & sume yg bg support kt ak slame nie..kwn2 ak yg sudi dgr luahan hati ak..aku akn belajar dr kesilapan & berusaha xkn ulang ksilapan ak lg pasnie,,INSYAALLAH..s0o,,geng..korunx p0wn kne laa hati2 ye pasnie..jgn drive laju2 & yg penting INGATLAH ORANG YANG TERSAYANG!!